Thursday I was chomping at the bit to get the heck out of work and get on the road.
I picked up my nieces Ava & Stella, stopped at Target for some last minute stuff then off we went! Traffic wasn't to bad until we got to the lake and that was stop and go for a while. The girls sang and danced in the car then fell right to sleep after about an hour. It's a givin that they fall asleep in the car :)
The sweetest thing was watching my sister with my nieces once we got there. She missed them so much and you could tell they missed her too!
I can't tell you how much I love those little peanuts, they are so funny, happy, and down right hilarious little things! In the words of Ava, "Mama!!! I WANT A NAP!!!!" ha ha thank you Ava we all had a great laugh over that one.
My best friend Emily came up for the weekend, which was such a treat! I don't think I express to her enough just how much she means to me. Emily has been the glue that has kept me together these past 8 months and I can't Thank her enough. I know I have a hard time expressing things sometimes, but I truly hope she realizes just how much I care about her and her future little family :)
I can't wait to be an Auntie again and spoil that little one once he/she gets here!
This year was a HUGE change of pace compared to the last 10 years over my birthday/4th of July weekend. I normally have 10+ people up at the cabin, but this year after everything that has been going on I knew my family and myself just needed a break from all the craziness of a house full and we kept it to just family.
I think we truly needed that time together to rebound.
We went out on Saturday night for my 25th birthday! My gosh where did time go?! I can't believe I am 25 already. I can remember back in high school hanging out with Erin and her and I talking about where we would be by the time we were 25 and thinking that it was so OLD.
But now here I am, 25 and I have only reached one of my goals I had set for myself. Now I know making goals at 15 isn't to realistic because I had no idea where my life was going to take me 10 years later. I always imagined I would be married, with a little white picked fence, a dog and a kid by now.
But I've had to come to a realization that my plains were not God's plans for me and that's OK. I know God had a hand in every relationship I have ever had, and I know for a fact that he did not feel that any of those people were right or good enough for me. So I will just wait as long as it takes to find that someone who respect me, loves me, and accepts me craziness and all! :) ha ha
No matter how long it takes, I will NEVER settle for less then the best. I deserve it.
One day when I'm ready I will live out my dreams, but right now I know my life needs to be focused on me. As selfish as that sounds I know it's true. I know that I need to finally put myself first. Do you put yourself first? Do you do things that make you happy? If not change that! It doesn't matter if your a husband, wife, mother, father, grandmother, or grandfather, no matter what role in life you play, no matter how important, you must still find time to put yourself first.
Even if it's a walk, or a nap, do something that makes you happy. I've learned that no matter how much someone tells you they love you, or tell you how beautiful you are it's not enough if you don't feel that way about yourself.
No matter how many times my ex told me I was beautiful I never felt that way, I never understood why he saw me like that. Not until I truly put myself first and started to improve me did I truly understand why he told me I was beautiful. As most of you know that relationship did not end well, but one thing that, that man never did was make me feel ugly. He truly went out of his way to make me feel beautiful. So if there's only one good thing I can take out of that relationship, or one thing I could actually thank him for it would be that.
Bare with me guys I know this is getting long, but so much has been going on, and I just feel like I need to inspire myself and others right now. I need the motivation to get my butt back into things today. I didn't do so great at the cabin this weekend. I did however makes sure I went for walks and it was so hot I think I sweated out just as much as I would have at the gym.
As I sit here at work I can't stop thinking about getting to the gym! I need to get back to the daily grind, I truly miss it. I miss that sweat, hard work, and that amazing feeling after it's all said and done. That high you get leaving, knowing you just spent 2 hours of your day doing something good for yourself!
Oh my gosh I don't want to forget to mention something. I have truly found a new respect and love for my parents. Yesterday we spent an hour just the three of us sitting in the living just talking about life, joking around with each other and laughing so much. Yes we tend to pick on each other but it's all in good fun. I know my parent's love me but I also know I needed to get out of their house and they needed me to leave. I needed to realize what it's like to truly grow up, and they needed to be empty nesters. Now I do see my Mom almost every day still because we go to the gym together but my Dad and I now have a stronger bond I think because I don't live with them. There's a new respect level, and I believe they now see me more as an adult. And to be completely honest, I wouldn't give up that feeling for anything in this whole world.
Now if you know me pretty well you may already know that I have a hard time expressing my feelings about current things. It's so easy for me to say I love you, give hugs and kisses to my nieces, I could do it all day.
However, I have a hard time doing that with anyone else. I'm slowly starting to come out of my shell but I am very reserved and closed off to a lot of people. It's hard for me sometimes to say I love you, or even give a hug. Not because I don't love you, but because I am now scared of opening up to anyone. All I can say right now if you're reading this and you feel as if I do not show you that I care about you, or that I love you, please take my word for it. I truly love you and I am so grateful to have you in my life.
So now that it is already Tuesday, I'm so off on my days! I have to get back to the grind of life, focus on me, move forward and love me! I am going to leave everyone on some good notes, I'm going to share some of my favorite pictures from this past weekend and share with you some of my favorite quotes. These quotes help me get through tough days.
I hope you all enjoyed your weekend as much as I did!
Until next time,
Health & Happiness
Mags
RIP Grandpa Munn
"If you don't get lost there's a chance you may never be found" ~ Unknown Author
"I'll never reach my destination if I never try, so I will sail my vessel til the river runs dry" ~ Garth Brooks
"I can teach anybody how to get what they want out of life. The problem is that I can't find anybody who can tell me what they want." ~Mark Twain
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
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